So, I am overwhelmed - at home, at work, at life. I am tired, I am over-committing myself. In the face of overwhelming responsibilities (both externally and self generated), I tend to pile on more things I should do. But last night, I did stop and enjoy a quiet moment. I sat in the dark with a cold beverage and watched a small fire with Higgy. That makes me smile more.
Of course, today when I had to find a way to fit in all the things that I didn't do last night.... cranky! I need to find some balance.
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I totally relate to you except I don't have two kids. But I got to the point where I totally under committed to everything because I was over committed for so long and just plain tired.
But here's the thing, when I was under committed, I was bored and fell into a downward spiral personally, professionally, and healthwise. Because I was having fibromyalgia flair ups, I took my Dr.'s advice and dropped pretty much everything. But I should have listened to ME...I knew I couldn't give in because it would totally consume me. And that is what it did.
Over the summer I was doing a lot of soul searching. On June 1, I all of a sudden was chronologically closer to age 50 then I was to 40! And what was I doing for me? I had the weight of the world on my shoulders...in a job that I was feeling uninspired but trapped because Andy has been laid off again. My fibro had been flairing for the last year and I could not pull myself out of that perpetual exhaustion and brain numbing. I wasn't reading or creating much or writing.
I decided that I wanted to go back to school and change my career and my life. I'm going to art school -- although I'm not officially accepted yet until I turn in my portfolio in the spring and get accepted. I love teaching my scrapbooking and stamping classes so I want to move into that arena and marry some of the areas I've learned in my corporate life. I want to be in curriculum development and would love to work for an art company or crafting company to work in their training area.
So, after this long comment, the thing is for me, do I want to under commit and be bored or do I want to cram as much in to my life as I can. I choose the latter...and sure I am tired but I can't imagine not having the moments I have had in the last few months.
Hang in their kiddo!
Very few people stop and think about this kind of thing, so you are already a few steps ahead.
If all you do at first is think for 10 seconds before committing to something else, that's a first step.
I believe (hope) that, in time, we will get better at staying closer to balance. Or, at least we will get faster at recognizing when we are too far off-balance and making a change to pull it back in.
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